a bit about me... //SURVEY

Face paint .... haha have a laugh ... i did it after i coloured the class banner when i cannot finish the colours. :p

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
:: Answer : (a) yes (b) No. Two Unknowns

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What's there?
:: Tissue box

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
:: Huo4 Yuan2 Jia3 ( Fearless )

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
:: 9:50 p.m

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
:: 9:50p.m. ( gosh , I'm good )

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
:: My Sister Running Up the Stairs

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
:: Painting

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
:: Sue's Survey

9. What are you wearing?
:: Shirt and 3/4 pants

10. Did you dream last night?
:: yes, weird dream though . Dreamt about walking into a bookshop , and met about one of my friend tht told me he finished reading the book of Acts ( a book in the bible )

11. When did you last laugh?
:: hm... not sure ... i seem to laugh everytime ... :p

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
:: A clown shape clock , two tables , a ironing board , bed , tv , sofa , com table , two cupboards , shirt hanging cupboard

13. Seen anything weird lately?
:: yeah , someone weird alright

14. What do you think of this quiz?
:: Cool?

15. What is the last film you saw?
:: Troy , didn't get to finish the show though .

16.If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
:: I'm not sure actually , I'm stunned at this question. If i were to be a multi-millionaire i wouldjust hope i would lose myself

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
:: Hm... I have a phobia for sertain type of girls , i know it sounds weird , but walk far away from them when i see them . :p . And i'm afraid of heights

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
:: I would hope teenagers wouldn't experience "love" yet . I just hate to see its consequences eating up the lives of some youths of today . i feel like crying now though . I seriously hate it .

19. Do you like to dance?

:: i like to , but all the fats get in the way , so i've stopped . :x

20. What do you like about George Bush:
:: not sure , who is he anyway ? ( joking ) hm..... nothing?

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
:: Suesanne Tan Ye Xin ( Jewels like the Stars at Night ) beacuse she would be precious to me like the sparkling stars at night. I like stars .

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
:: Janetton Tan Ray le ( Ri4 Le4 which is Sun and happiness ) Because I would hope that his life would be like the sun that brings happiness to the people around him .

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
:: Everyday man ....

24. Where would you go?

:: Not sure , australia?

25. What wouldyou say if your ex-girlfriend ( or someone who rejected you ) comes back and say " hey let's be together again ... "

:: I may have always love you , But i'm stupid enough to come back to you .

26. Who are you thinking of now ?

:: Someone ?

27. What would you hope for him/her ?

:: to Grow up , and change her thoughts and mentallity .

28 . If you would have a million dollars , what would you do ?

:: Hm... give to church building fund? and to travel The Legandary Roman Empire ( Rom ) . And do something else .

29. If you were to die today , who do you wish to see ?

:: someone dear to me ? What kind of question is this?

30. Would you want the person whom you love now to be with you?

:: No, she needs to study now, and i wouldn't have the time and money to Horng3 her. :p wait lah ... and i dun think she likes me also .. hahaha....

31. What do you wish to be when you grow up ?

:: Pastor or phsychologist

32. What would you want do if you did achieve to be what you want to be ?

:: Have a unity organisations among all the youth church groups in JB. So that we can help each other to grow the teenagers in this era . That is my passion .

Death//So Sudden//So Unpredictable

On the morning I called Saturday . My mom entered my room and waked me up . Having all the load of tiredness aching all over my body , I arose unwillingly . Only to find out the news of death knocking on my eardrums .

I hate death , i really do .

Having to know about my dear ex-teachers death , I felt nothing . I have to be honest , she thought me B.M when I was 12, but that was like 4 years ago . It was because of that I have much feelings when I heard about her death.



However, having to be friends with her sons , I was still in deep symphathy with her family . She was a Great Teacher , a Great Mother , and Great Wife to her husband .



On Sunday night , I was given a chance to go to her wake service . I was reluctant. I hated funeral sevice like that . Everyone will be sad,i hate to be in that kind of situation . Most of all , i didn't want to cry . But anyway i still went . Having to hear about the people talking about her , I was deeply moved . No... actually I was speechless .Just like his son Isaac said " No words are worthy of describing her ."



Her son described about the time they went for vacation together . She always wanted to take pictures . He and his brother thought it was annoying .



But only then they understood. Because now they know , only the Photos can clearly show them the time they

Happily spent Together.

I was dearly touched , and i was deeply moved, the tears were wanting to gush out , but i held them back . I wish i didn't . But sadly . . . i did .



I missed her dearly and I will always remember the teachings she left behind . All of her LEGACY .





Lastly , I want to say , THANK YOU TEACHER

TNT// Today Not Tomorrow

Today was another day, where i have grown towards the numbness ... Although the face of mine so joyful , but deep inside ... Nobody Knows ... Maybe i've come to a part where i've stopped caring . Maybe its beacuse all the people i care , never return to care about me . Maybe the sub-consiousness of Nobody-Cares-For-You has really got a hold of me?

Maybe i could say life was always different for me ... Life was always abnormal ...

However ,aren't all of us different ?

Here are a few videos tht says one thing ... We are all different ..


hahahahahahahahahahahhhahaaahahhaa.......
Ken Lee !!!! Tulibu dubudaochu~~~

This next one is super geng3 ( awestrucking )

here's another guy, tht really is someone you can say , " Don't Judge A Book By Its Cover "


so..... school today was extraordinary ...
Me , Vincent , has attemped the " Wild Dog Bitting " act ... of which i thought tht there is only one word to describe it .... " MEMPER-SIA-SWAY "

hahah.... never in my life would i do tht again ... so chong dar please dun look at me with those eyes and ask me to act that again, OKay? :p

BI was cool , nothing much actually , i totally slacked of that class... some ppl were doing the second Oral Test .

B.M. was totally UNCOOL.... teacher looked sooo pissed when she came in , as if she had got up from the wrong side of bed.... did NILAM ( book review ) for some stupid test thing larh... burt actually we all faked... :P Because none of us really read the books ... LOL ... we just copied the introduction at the back... and I BORROWED another book ... hahah "borrowed "

Ad.maths was pretty interesting , we learnt about " RADIAN " and how to find perimeter from using the formula S=rQ ( sorry , can't find the symbol of titah )

BC . i wasn't paying attention in B.C as i didn't take tht subject . i was busy reading my "borrowed " book .

When It came to SiviK , it was pretty dissapointing as SOMEBODY freakingly forgot to bring the Cloth on which we are suppose to paint. Anyway, we then played the animal game, which was sooo totally cool . hahahah . Me as the "hamster" , totally enjoyed the game . As cool as it was, we tried to put in songs like " negaraku and Ke4 Ren2 Lai ( the coming of a guest ) . It was ... hilarious ... then we tried to put in animal sounds tht were totally not related ... lol ... like i put a worm sign and said "MEOW !!! " ... hahah

Biology . We went to the lab , as the teacher talked about the process of how a cell splits through meiosis ....and ... hm............. meiosis ... tht seems to be the only word i've learnt from bio class... haha... .

Chong han said it was so boring tht he has to try all his best to keep himself awake . But i think tht it was pretty interesting , but i was tired of the day , thts why i couldn;t remember a thing .

Wa.... the pipe so nice to stare...keep starring

I'm gonna eat my hand ... :p

[=THE BEST TEACHER EVER=]

After tht we went home , draggin our TORTURED body and mind out of the school to continue the rest of the day ...

Wat Am I Doing To My Life????

I just wanna sleep........
Do you understand me??? WHy cant you understand me.... it is so hard???? i'm not a good boy like nah or peter they all... i'm just not them... i'm someone difference... but i just wanna have life like normal couple... don t you know... maybe you don care... hai... maybe i should just sleep.. and don care all this??? hai.... why cant you just teasure me like some ppl do... why cant you... you know how much i #### you... but you just scare of wat i also duno la... hai.... let not talk about it.... oh ya i wanna tell you all... WE have a NEW GROUP of dance team.... Support us... D4J.... DANCE FOR JESUS... Wanna JOin???? It all about Hip-hop and break dance.... Hee... Hope today i did screw up my exam... hai... hope i can pass my exam WITHOUT EVEN STUDYING..... HOW COOL IS IT... haha
signing out...
St Prince.... smile... so tired wanna sleep
can??????

i'm so tired

How Do You If When Your Gal Don Wan To Spend Time With You....
when there is time she just act stupid... don even wan to spend time hai... even when i'm injured she don bother to ask or care.... wat can i do and say hai... i'm really tired... but yet i still love her... hai... exam start tmr and im not scare didn even study... hai.... wat am i doing... hai.... so tired... just wanna sleep.... drop the sad stuff... something cool.... wanna know wat.... stay with us.... you'll find out soon enough... hahahahaha....
St...Prince..........

改变

我的生活不断地在改变。

我成为了爸爸，我的太太成为了妈妈。

二人世界变成了三人世界。

一加一真的不一定等于二。

它可以等于三，等于四，等于超越你所求所想的。

看着自己的宝宝，

从出世的第一天，直到今天（不过两个多月而已），

他的改变真的令人感到赞叹。

我从中领悟到生命是一直不断地在改变。

不但是环境的改变，

身份的改变，就连我自己也要做出改变。

付上我以前没付上的责任，

作我以前没作过的事，

经历我以前没经历过的兴奋。

在这世上，唯一不改变的就是改变。

改变有时会带来欢笑，有时会带来泪水。

有时会有一种刺激的感觉，有时会有一丝丝的压力。

当我被这些改变压得喘不过气时，我想起了耶稣的邀请。。。

马太福音11:28-30

你们所有劳苦担重担的人哪，到我这里来吧！我必使你们得安息。

我心里柔和谦卑，你们应当负我的轭，向我学习，你们就必得着心灵的安息；

我的轭是容易负的，我的担子是轻省的。

耶稣要赐下他的安息。（千万不要误会，这里不是指“安息主怀”）

约翰福音16:33

我把这些事告诉你们，是要使你们在我里面有平安。在世上你们有患难，但你们放心，我已经胜了这世界。”

耶稣要赐下他的平安。

罗马书 5:3-5

不但这样，我们更以患难为荣；

知道患难产生忍耐，忍耐产生毅力，毅力产生盼望；

盼望是不会令人蒙羞的，因为　神借着所赐给我们的圣灵，把他的爱浇灌在我们的心里。

原来面对改变，压力及患难，是一件我能够引以为荣的事。

哈哈哈。。。经过这一切，我的生命就能够淀放出基督的香气。

罗马书 8:37-39

但靠着爱我们的那一位，我们在这一切事上就得胜有余了。

因为我深信：无论是死、是生，是天使、是掌权的，是现在的事，是将来的事，

是有能力的，是高天的、是深渊的，或是任何别的被造之物，

都不能叫我们与神的爱隔绝，这爱是在我们的主耶稣基督里的。

耶稣要赐下他的得胜！

耶稣爱我，在他的爱里面，永远是最安全的！

耶稣，我要来到你的里面。

I arose from my bed after hearing the Japanese song coming from my phone . Reluctantly , I stood out of bed and headed upstairs for a bath. Due to me fatigue , i was unable to go up the stairs with constant stability . I pressed my hands to both the sides of my rear and advance gradually .

Getting into the bathroom, i took a shower . It was cold . i waited for the water to warm up . Then I stood under the sprinkles of water , as it washes my face , while FUSING THE PRESENT INTO PAST . I thought , what on earth have i done yesterday?

It Seems Like Nothing Happened

It was then, I put some guts into myself . . . and set some goals for the day .

First and foremost, i thought i really need to keep QUIET in class . I'm really pissing people off . If i can't even get control over my tongue , how then will it be with my life?

Secondly , i want to SMILE , i want forget all the bad experience i had, and live for today . i want to use my life to make peoples life . . . Happier . . . Delightful . . . Pleasant

Reaching school deteriorated , as i could only sleep at 2 . thought i would enjoy , but maybe not . Having a little black layer under my eye . Had the usual chat with Kian yee . Then headed back to the class.

B.M was ordinary , nothing much . had to right a Karangan .

E.S.T was pretty interesting . Our dear teacher had us do some research on different kind of energy in this world. But the most interesting of all , was this. as i headed out to look for books, Mrs . Ballet Gurl already got a whole stack of them in her hands. I have to admit, it was simply an interesting sight . She seriously has a personality that strongly attracts me .

Maths was a bad period for me . Firstly i didn't get the exercise that we were suppose to do because i wasn't around . To make things worst i even had forty winks.

Biology was pretty interesting . But one thing was sure , girls are really complicated . Haha .

ENGLISH really RAWKED again . we had a time of our lives. fist it was a quiz which we had a draw. Then came the fun part. We both boys and girls had the same pievce of newspaper . Then teacher told us something we had to find . Then we will have to give wad we found to the leader ( Kian Yee and Shea Yin ) to pass it to the teacher . It was hilarious. The excitement was in the air , and everyone had a great time .

That pretty much sums up the day at school today , thank you for reading ...

St.Vincent

heartbeat...//yours or mine?

Earlier sometime in my life , i've come to reach a point , where i believe many people ahead of me has come through . It is the point where i feel nobody cares. Where i feel the darkness within trying to breaking out .

Every sms i sent out , has a reply . But 9 out of 10 sms hardly pass the first line .It was devastating . Maybe its because they aren't free at all . But the question is , what are my friends busy about? Girlfriends? Boyfriends ?
To live in a life where standing tall isn't easy . Having to feel such great pressure in the eyes of people , parents , and friends . Having so much temptation to join the Dark Sides of my life.To rebel against what my parents has been teaching me since young .

Sometimes, a question always pop up in my mind, why can't i just have a simple life like other people . Why do i have to live differently.

A BATTLE RAGING WITHIN . Between good and evil . A battle between rebellion or to obey . A Battle against self negative image . In these times , i've been trying to trust God. Making My Heartbeat His , not mine .

And product of my troubles , this song .



GOD MADE ME BEAUTIFUL

Sometimes , I Look At Myself
Through the mirrors of this world.

And I thought I was Ugly
Nothing much to look at all .

But when i look at the stars ,at night
I thought, They Were Beautiful .

Then I realise,
That the creator of these ,
Is the same as mine .

For God Made Me ,
Beautiful , Beautiful , So Beautiful

For God Made Me ,
Beautiful ......... Like him .



St.Vincent